My Current Weight Loss

Sunday, October 21, 2007

A Snowy Sunday

That's right - it's October and it snowed about 4+ inches here today. Yesterday it was 78 and sunny. Where in the world does it drop over 40 degrees in one day?! Oh, yeah... Denver. At least it is starting to melt already and it looks like it will be a pretty nice week. I am so not ready for winter.

Matt left today on a trek to Kansas City, MO. He found a car he wants out there so he left for the 9 hour drive this afternoon. I'm always wishing I had more free time to do some fun stuff, but I've had all day to myself and I couldn't think of anything I wanted to do. Since our house is on the market, the place is spotless so there was nothing to clean. For the first time in forever my hamper is completely empty and every piece of laundry is washed. It is icky outside so I didn't want to go anywhere. Basically, I was bored. I did just make a pot of homemade chicken noodle soup which was pretty yummy, so I was somewhat productive. Long story short, I wish he was here. :)

So, my weight loss as been disgraceful lately. I haven't been to a weight watchers meeting in a month and a half. That is mostly due to the fact that almost all of my work deadlines are on Fridays, and I'm always working late on Thursdays when my meetings are. I should just go to a new meeting, but I really like the leader at my current meetings. I am determined to go this week, though. I am quite upset with myself and the fact that I've lost a whopping 3 pounds in 3 months. I've lost that in a week before. There is really no excuse for it. I have been eating pretty well, I just haven't been exercising, and I know I have to. I'm not really sure how to start, but I really need to fit it into my daily routine.

Along those lines, I haven't changed my goals on the right side-bar since I started this whole thing. The main reason is that if I do, I'm admitting that I failed - miserably. It's October 21 and I haven't even met the goal I set for July. How lame is that. I look at pictures of myself and am utterly disgusted, but for some reason I can't translate that into daily motivation. It is really driving me crazy.

Another thing that has been bugging me lately is that my sister has lost a lot of weight. She came out last weekend to visit and do wedding stuff, and she looks really good. I'm not upset that she is losing weight and I'm not... it isn't that at all. What bugs me is that she is taking some sort of pill to help her do it. It's really expensive and not a prescription. My mom keeps calling and saying how proud she is of my sister and how great she looks now. I try to explain to her that I wish she was doing it another way, because it's unhealthy and when she was younger she abused diet pills. My mom responds with "Well, I guess she just really wanted the weight off... its a lot easier to just maintain being thin than actually getting there." OMG! Does that mean that because I'm not risking getting addicted to some pill that I don't want to lose weight? Grrr. It just makes me mad for some reason and I can't really explain it.

Okay, enough ranting. I didn't think I really had anything to say, but I guess I did. :) I hope everyone has a great week! Oh, and GO BRONCOS!